To Start or Get Startled

Want a change? Maybe just change a few things in life - maybe a real big change? Maybe it is long time overdue, and you know it very well?

But it doesn't function?

'Something' is always pulling you back, and like 'magic', things happen in your life to  keep you exactly there where you have always been? 'Constraints' or 'events' happen that hinder you from doing things you wanted and make it easy for you to excuse because that was all beyond your influence?

Have you ever considered that you in fact don't want a change? 

That you in principle want everything to stay the same as it was and is, as you know it, despite you have learned that either that version does not work or that there indeed is something more than you would have considered before which you would like to go for - but you don't?

It is easy to say that we need a change, and many people really, really wish such to happen.

Many put all their hopes into that one day when at one point things that are simply running bad will change. They believe in a certain point in time, that a certain event occurs that might cause the change. Many want to believe it is this year 2012, and when such kind of 'predictions' which in principle are based on no fundaments, won't work out they will still go on in the same ways as before. Many believe in the Hundredth Monkey Phenomenon when we have reached an equilibrum where a paradigm change just appears out of the sudden. Some believe in that the effects we cause ourselves, as Fukushima, will make more people think and such induce the world to change. Well, Chernobyl hasn't changed anything - so why do they believe Fukushima will? Some believe in Aliens landing with spacecrafts and making that change happen. Good luck.

The species Homo Sapiens is quite resistant against any wisdom and better knowledge and even against understanding simple causalities. Humans get stirred and irritated for a while and that was most likely all. Some individuals though wake up a little from their slur. But those are really only a few. They try for a while to create awareness and soon give up, ending up in funny little splinter societies which create their very own rules and where they can keep on painting the world as they like it to be. There they find a role they like to play, and on goes the game of acting and playing around instead of living life as they are given it.

It's up to us to re-al-ize that it's only us who can make things happen. 

If we in principle want that everything stays the same, then it certainly will be exactly so. In small areas, in private or in bigger relations, not to talk about a major shift.


I would like to thank all those who take a lot on their shoulders and give up or refuse a lot amenities just to follow that little spark inside. 

Integrity has a price and it is worth to 'pay' it. When there is often enough no big light, there is at least some little tiny spark, sometimes lit by an at first sight unprominent occasion, person or event, which stirs and guides us and ignites our engines, big or small, tiny or immensely powerful when the time has come. It's up to us to note it.

Needless to mention that the aliens some people wait for are already here. Same as 'the dead' are walking just among us, and even 'Christ' whom so many 'Christians' wait for. Babylon, as well, just look at how even people who speak the same language misinterpret each other. 

Just that they are not able to see, caught in their own little illusions of how they imagine the world to be, and waiting for someone in the hierarchy to tell them what they should believe if already they can't believe their very own eyes and ears and senses.

This and many other optical illusions you'll find on
web design mash - Totally Mind-Bending Optical Illusions

It's the pictures they have gotten implanted and continuously get refreshed (and actively though unknowingly refresh themselves) that make them blind to what happens around them. And lots of people who in the same way don't want things to change and cling to you as an object - not as an alive being - will confirm that it is best to stay where you are. 'I only want what's best' can actually have two very diverging meanings. Like a conglomerate of needy molecules one sticks to the other and together they form weird synthetics, just never anything pure and of own will or identity. Just ask those and you will always live somebody else's life. Just never yours which would give you the option to freely chose and create what you really have in mind. So the question we may ask ourselves when we are unsatisfied is: 

Would we be ready to give up a few of our illusions, just some of our convenience way we have bedded our egos in so well, if we would get in real what we, our souls, our hearts, had wanted for so long? 

Are we ready to leave a lot of rubbish behind of which we anyway know it does not function, like habits (which even might not be our own ones but we 'got used to' by bending our selves to others' wills), attitudes (we have learned at an early stage and never questioned), ways to approach problems (we already have learned that they don't work)? 
Or would we stick with habits and convenient believes that never had made us happy but that we just got so accustomed to?

Well, as usual it's all up to us. We are masters. Not necessarily of the world or of the universe - but we are free to master our very own lives to a certain degree and within the framework we are placed in or are placing ouselves in. As, of course, we are part of a bigger organism or system but still we have the power to act as we like. 
Or we can re-act only, be steered by others and be slaves of a pre-set environment instead of realizing that if already we are part of a system, we also have some power within that system. Who wants to end up like the fox in the fable who re-al-igned his view by finding that the grapes he had longed for anyway were too sour? I am deeply convinced that we shouldn't let go our dreams just because of a few hinderances. Humans are creative, and their main brain skills is to invent possibilities where it didn't look as if there were any. It is even us ourselves who form our own brains ... but that's another topic.

Believe it or not: it's you who has the key in hands to start your engine - or you who is getting startled.

The latter is severely re-lated to dysautonomia.

And 'relation' has to do with 'to rely'. Do you have a relation with your self? Can you rely on your self? 

If not - who else could rely on you if already you can't do?

By the way, the ego is completely reliable, it always functions simply and plain, it flees or attacks and defends, that depends. It is completely linear, caught in duality. It's easy, one box here - and one box there. That's why so many take that instead.

It's not about that there would be anything wrong with an ego (each one of us got one ... so are the rules and the game). The ego is fine and helps us through a lot of troubles. It's simply about the balance and when to apply which of the two.

Think about it if you like so, and have a nice day,

Lyn

Finding of the Day - Manatee

Nothing more to say. I really, really love them.

Poor cute manatee. It's certainly not very funny for him or her. Looks as if they obviously have not a good sight ... but as I feel them, lots of senses otherwise. Just probably not made for dealing with the tricky inventions of man.

Just Talk to Strangers

There is nothing as fruitful as talking with total strangers, sometimes.

We humans need us humans, and as a set up organism of many, we get in deep trouble if we would try to live as one only, or if we remain in isolated areas of thinking and habits where nothing changes and nothing really ex-changes, too.

Isolated and alone is not what we were made for, despite it sometimes is very necessary to get back to our roots and re-arrange inside and all alone. Like a car needs to see the garage from time to time for a check-up whether it is still safe for the road, it is not disadvantegeous if we do similarly. That check-up of course can not be done by people who only look at the seats and if the steering wheel still look quite o.k. If the engine or the gears grumble, there are specialists needed who may look deeper and into the not immediately obvious, and not just with the expectation that anyway it was functioning until now so why should there be anything to re-adjust. With that attitude and superficiality it is quite likely that one day the vehicle might show strange habits on the road, and very unexpectedly then.

It is certainly better if either we ourselves check-up, in case we call the rare ability for self-assessing our own. Or if we get checked by and check with total strangers. In many situations in life it had been total strangers who re-arranged and widely enlarged my views. People whom I met on travels. Old people. Young people. People from a totally different background and among each others the same, people with totally different life experiences, roots and outlooks, hopes and dreams. Talks after some long and deep thinking at a bar with someone, in an otherwise lonely place, can re-set some of our views we have on life and on ourselves. On our life, on the lives of others and on life itself. A talk to an unsympathic neighbour at first sight, in a café. Talks in closed circles of similar kinds to tranches of your own kind, too, though only for a little while, as no one is like you, anyone, any little creature is created uniquely and has to find through it's life in a unique and own way. There is no one to tell us how it works but only many, many different views from which we can try to see issues from a new and different angle. We don't have to agree and nevertheless, such enriches us enourmously.

'Source Pool' by RoguePhotonic
http://www.flickr.com/photos/roguephotonic/

Thus, we come together, open up for some moments, and automatically what ever we just carry with us gets a different re-flection, even if we do not dwell so extremely much in the details. Souls on their ways traveling through the world and getting tossed around need other souls to re-cognize the shine and why we are here. Searchers and any other alive beings re-cognize, re-flect and re-spect one another. I guess that's quite similar to how P. Coelho describes it in his booklet 'Manual of The Warrior of Light'. Hopefully, they then depart with the good input and memories of the meet, and do not try to turn it into a here-level relation (as this one doesn't work. We may get to learn that we are connected, always, anyway).

What enriches us stays within and both or all involved refill their reservoirs, apart from fruitful inputs for the way further. We all lose energies while we deal with those who can't refill from life itself or from the satisfaction they create themselves. We need one another, from time to time, and it is so tremendously precious to meet others who also haven't given up searching for what is meant. People who dare to take risks in life to stand in for something they are totally convinced of, people who dare to oppose what goes wrong and who have not given up looking behind and anew and for better ways. We all have our blessures but we also all have the ability to heal them well. We don't have to stick like instable molecules fixed to other instable molecules. We meet, cherish, and let go. It took me long time to learn this.

Don't try to conserve. Cherish. Enjoy. And ... let it flow. 

It is a funny permanent contradiction that those humans who already are on their way also deal a lot with self re-adjustment, and that those who are much further whole deal a lot more with healing and getting new, different and deeper perspectives and insights.

Have an energetic and re-flected start into this another. beautiful weekend, too, and enjoy a merry meet where ever it may come along. For those who seek for growth, may it be good fruitful input to enjoy and refill for your further way.

May be you re-al-ize your self.

Cheers,
Lyn

Little Heart on Wings Today

I'll bring you more than a song .... for a song in itself is not what you have required.


The song is metaphorical ... it is up to us what we worship and how we do. It is about integrity and what we go for in this our life and what funny roads we sometimes walk when we think we do but we don't.

The swan was real, today (though I couldn't catch it myself on picture but it flew like that one above straight above our heads) and the song was running in my head by itself today.



Thanks, most tiny little ones and thanks, most great and highest. In the beginning and in the end, it all belongs together as one.

And thanks, my daughter with the name of light, thanks for so much you have been showing me since you came into my life. May yours be the wings of the swan, too, one day. They and we also belong together and will come together as one.
Lyn

Only loved when we perform?

In the difficult and ongoing pursuit of finding at least a few answers on what is love, the meaning of life, what is connection, and what it is worth going for, there are at a point automatically coming up questions, induced through incidents in life, like:

Are we only loved when we perform?

Is it that we only deserve love when we are always delivering benefits to others?

Or do we have a right for being loved also when it's us who make mistakes?

What kind of people will turn away when at a point we simply can't perform at best, when we are too weak ourselves to direct everything in good ways, when it's simply us who are the ones in need of being carried, while usually we do carry others quite well?
And what kind of people will stay with us, also at the point when we simply are standing in front of a wall, when we are not finding ways out for a moment?
Who will stay with us when we have been staying with them, standing by their side always, at the point we are weak? Who will it be who carries us through that time when we have exhausted our energies and need a time to rest? And who will be strong enough just to endure also a little hardnesses for just a while until we have recovered, who will be looking into our eyes to realize how we are?

Who will softly caress our souls then when we are in need?

And who will just turn and run away, not caring what he leaves behind and how you are and feel while he or she was taking freely when you stayed there to support him or her when he/she was in need?

These are good questions to ask ourselves at certain stages in life.
The answers, deeply coming from the utmost innerst, will re-direct our path.

Love is light and light is love, though I dislike the esoteric taking over these terms, but so it is. Receiving a little love, a little light, when at a point all around looks like dark and we seem to not being able to make it, is as essential as providing such when others are in need.

It is fire who gives life to ice (said Waftrudnir).
And it is love which sees light and which will always go searching a light at the end of a tunnel and will overcome any constraints. It is us who need to allow. It is our will, our free decision.

The love someone is able to give us when we need, not only when we perform, is the most precious of all.

The 'love' and support that is given only as a reward for 'performing' or for benefits we constantly deliver, not from out of itself because it deeply wants to give itself, is nothing but a dangerous illusion.

Most often and unfortunately, it takes time and special occasions to find out what is this and what is that.

Sending a little love for those who also ask themselves such questions. And my answer is: Despite we are here to certainly have done our best from our side, we can not always be strong. We have the right, a natural right, to also at a point be weak and to wish there was someone taking over at that moment. Most often, this will not happen. But then we know who is. And who is not. For you, and me, a beautiful song performed by The Corrs.



Love,
Lyn

Never Change a Losing Horse?

What some of us might have found out by time and connected experience is for sure that things are most often not what they seem to be at first sight.

Others do have those special fine senses to realize how things (or persons) factually are. As most of us have learned (or: as we have been conditioned) that we should not judge we also don't allow ourselves good intuition, and they override their own good intuition. That is a big trap I fell in over for decades in my life until, finally and most often not understandable for people around, I go for exactly what my senses tell me. Having been overriding my own intuition and better knowledge for too many times in life because other people told me so, I decided to go less and less for cheap compromises.

On the other hand, I am most often endlessley patient and give many many chances to people with whom it is evident that they are carrying a big problem with themselves which they themselves would be happy to solve. I see that, and therefore I give chances. Funny though that when given that chance, people often decide to even get deeper into what they already are stuck in, in the negative sense.

It seems strange how people wish to have chances for a change and when they have exactly that chance the wanted, they fall back into their slur and often even strengthen the negative features to show them in full bloom.

Why it comes up now .... hmm, well. Life comes up with funny coincidences, sometimes. Actually, more often. Serendipity?

One reason I am pondering about this topic once more is a former business colleague of mine who tried to get back in touch with me several times during the last years. He had done real big shit a time before, showing the full face of the 'boys' game' which he unfortunately played on a woman, even a pregnant woman who lost all (materially) after that cheat (fortunately, she won all regarding life itself). Boys obviously do not understand at all that their game is only the one of male deer, using their antlers to show who is stronger, bigger, more powerful and in the end, has the better chances to mate and breed. With this, they are not on any other level than any other animal in the world. These boys are running around in adult men's bodies, being very successfull with pretending they know the ways while they are in reality only like children playing in a sandpit, not realizing what their actions in real life cause.

In this confused world, they mess with the female deers who clearly have other missions rather than  messing around to show who 'got the biggest'. Coming back to that person, after decades where it happened that he played boyish game in business (actually near to criminal but 'the market' allows a lot) he uses every (web) chance to connect back. But he does not clarify anthing, and so nothing changes. So it seems he either carries a burden or he still does not think at all, while I doubt the latter. Every halfway intelligent person knows well what they have done. I am curious what comes out of this and if he will use the chance for a change.

The other cause is an organization I have worked for before, in information management. I had showed up to the management that organizationally some things need to be slightly changed to not run into same problems over and over. But they didn't change the losing horse. They seem to love it - so may it be.

A friend of mine experiences similar, in another international organization, and from the information I receive, it seems all the same. The pattern seems to be to not only not change losing horses but to promote them and run it all deeper and deeper into incapability. Well, one day they will then be like jockeys without horses at all.

This my former organization has recently contacted me for retrieving information. The point is that I had hinted at what things need to be slightly changed to not run into such a situation, and they had, thanks to the power of incapable management and administrators, even shut down the whole information management project (and my role together with it). A kind of Kamikaze attitude I would call it, in fact. If you need to be aware that you severely depend on information but refuse to make information available you will run out of information at a point. It is great fun to see they come back to that and ask help of the person they beforehand refused to listen to. A Kindergarten. But unfortunately, an organization for which good and hard-working people are paying taxes.

And the third reason to dwell in thoughts about this scheme is the fact that momentarily, I am working for a purpose I have my severe problems to get out the deeper meaning for the world's benefit. We all know that we, as human race, severely mess around with the planet's energies. At the same time, pushing even more machines into the market which completely unnecessarily use up energies is a critical game. I am wondering why I am sent there. Maybe there is a good reason and I can tell you later once.

Every action (and non-action where action is required) is a possible cause, and the chains of causalities hit back. Sometimes hard but never unfair. We can await that. 

The only thing I pity is that in the meantime
a) usually many innocent people get involved and suffer from the incapability of some who play mean games, and
b) for the moment it looks as if this was a successfull attitude. Only in the long run and with good observation qualities, it gets clear it is not. Not at all. So other people get confused and follow such patterns, being made believe it works. It works, yes, very shortterm. But the balance in the end (and sometimes even earlier) will show what someone really has used his or her creativity for in life.

Wishing that we may be blessed to revise what needs revision, in time and never on the cost of others. Then we have already done a lot well.

Cheers and have a great wonderous day,

Lyn

Job's Job 2

Extending the unlucky 'I am in the pod' story of December, looks like my cousin did another Job's job by presenting the pod for my daughter, this time.

As you try to educate kids and give them a sense of social balance - well, the world is not social but it could be, it's just that some always want more and that necessarily must be cut off from others - there are some people who simply don't seem to get that humans do not necessarily need to get down to their level of 'making a difference' by separating. Separating one from the other by differentiating by what you 'have. And what they have not overcome, they try to get other people into. Sometimes, not so rarely, by acting as if they just would 'do good'. So as they define themselves by what they 'have' (not what they are), they try to trigger same in others. And give them a good portion of trouble with that. Acting on the most vulnerable spots is the tactics.

But what do we 'have'?

Certainly not more than what we have left when everything breaks down. Want to believe it or not, every thing decays at a point which is not self-re-creating itself from out of itself. For that it needs creative powers. Cutting powers only can cut. Cut, cut off, separate, 'analyze' (translate the latter and you will get it. Analysis is good ... if it serves to bring together, to synthesize, the cut-apart parts into something creative and new). Creating is bringing together for something new, for building, synchronizing formerly single elements so that together they form up a new existence. In best case, the latter causes continuous re-creation. A cycle of life.

What is it, then, what we have, when things are separated to the very end? All we have and all we can take with us in a worst case scenario is what we have developed. Inside. What is outside, none of us can carry with him or her. Neither nice clothes nor belongings nor goods we can keep with us. All will rot, all that is material will fade as it got no substance in itself. It looses it's energies until nothing will be left over, and sometimes involve a whole lot of destruction in between. Fission at it's best.

Am I wondering? Certainly I am not. Where humans lack creation inside, they will also try to form up their environment accordingly. They show 'good' to the outside as they are socialized like that, outsidely, but ooops, they 'only wanted good' and didn't mean the effects they have caused. My cousin certainly also only wants that. There must be good reason why her (sole) daughter wants to be a psychologist one day. I hate this kind of 'doing good' by sowing material wishes and envy in others who in principle are far away from that. Wish these people would not try to do 'good' by bringing people apart. But that is how they work.

A recent conversation in the public transport on the way to work. One young man, complaining about all those predefined functionalities in the apple gadgets. Discussion about that today you have to pay much more to get electronics where you still have some choice to define how you want it to work. The other young man, joking: 'why don't you just give yourself over to imposed immaturity?' I can tell you, those boys made my day. They got it.

In this sense, putting hopes into the new new generation while wondering how they will be able to make it with the load passed on by the generation before. Consuming is no life style. Consuming without taking care that the environment also will survive and that next in time have a fundament, chance (and right) to make a living, too, is worthless. No hulls and pods around can hide what we developed underneath. One day, we all dance naked.

Easter fires are still - or again - very traditional
in many places in Europe especially in the Alpes

In this sense, enjoy a nice celebration of what is 'coming up from the East'. Easter, or in the same ethymology, 'Ostern' (that what comes from 'Osten', well, simply translated as East).
A fire coming from the East is, literally, not as unthinkable as we might want to think. Carpe Diem ... or che(r)rish the day.

You can also light yourself a nice fire. The best fire is still the fire burning inside which does not perish and is not suffocated by pods around.
Or choose the shell, a mollusk clamped to the ground, never moving from its place unless it is swirled away by other forces. We are as free as we have never been before.

ALL is our choice.

Happy Easter.

Love,
Lyn